I got the answer

Ento

anni vinta vinta thoughts, anni kotta kotta revelations!!

eemani interpret ch3eyaalo veetannintini??!! its all too abstract, too stupid rather... perhaps I am rationalizing...

I dont know .

nenu ilaage pichi pichi ga chetta chetta gaa unnappude comfortable ga unna.
as far as I am concerned, this-- i repeat --THIS is my comfort zone.
all of this is normal for me! whenever I deny it, or try to modify it, problems emerge...huh!
It always seems to me as adjustment, but perhaps, its wonderful that i'm like that.
its wonderful that something called sam who's like that exists in this world, pure and perverted, just like that.

i dont know if i amable to convey exactly what i feel... I dont know!!
but I know what I mean.
Its wonderful to be like this.
And its more wonderful being better.
Being better doesnt mean killing sam and replacing her with someother so called wonderful X
Its wonderful becoming a better sam, and now I know what i really mean by it!!
yeah! I do know waht I mean by it!
its not about forcing a wonderful style of doing things of someone else upon me, its all about getting absorbed in my own style of doing things and relishing it to the maximum. making myself better and betther and better

i love this.
i love working like this.
this keeps me very very comfortable. Stress free. happy. contended. energetic.

i dont care if anyone understands all the crap i write here... I dont care if all that I write here is misinterpretsed. it just doesnt matter to me. I am too happy to notice and worry about all these things right now! I am too happy!!