very bad

Was busy with ANS yesterday...
I completed reading it but am not satisfied...as always!!

With protozoology today...partly satisfied.

Oho..em cheyanu...
Time left is not long enough to let me complete everything..not short enough to make me skip most of it and go through superficially...!!

Have to find a way out...!

back again

Was out of my place for a week



Whole week.. without books, without pressures(exam pressures, other inhibitions and constraints-even financial)..

I dont understand..

Received a news yesterday...that created a sense of urgency in me. Still I dont find myself working at a pace I am capable of..

I have got many many things to do..and carryon my preparation simultaneously..But nothng goes on in a smooth fashion.

Oh!!

God!!

What the hell am I doing here??

Time is really precious...We dont realize its value so long as we have plenty of it...
but when it slips out of our hands, then do we feel the urgency. Then we will have to comprimise on the quality of our work and somehow manage to finish it in time

Found an answer to my dilemma

Didn't respond to a mail today...

Not that I didn't understand what was being told..I think I was afraid of being misunderstood.

To be frank, yesterday's post was not true...I mean, it really didn't happen yesterday. I just wanted to portray something that always happens with me.. And to make it more realistic, I added some fiction. But got a reply that really made me think...
True that a day need not be considered to be wasted if my mind didn't stop thinking. But there are things that make us stagnate(like watching stupid saas-bahu serials, engaging in stupid gossip)

Agree that I need time to assimilate what I read...that must be why I really remember what I had read many years ago. But now I have become so stupid that I give very less input to be assimilated. Whats really funny is..this is not the right time to decide to change my opinion of perfect study...I have to stickon to my previous belief if I have to get through the exam.

We often happen to realize right things at wrong time...and when the right time really arrives we dont realize that it is the right time to correct the wrong...

Again, History repeats!!

A challenge ahead!!

Have an exam...and an unavoidable and most awaited trip---I can't cancel either...But have to do justice to both..

I have such a big responsibility..and I still waste the time at such an extent!!

I have to work to my fullest to write my exam well...(not because I have to prove myself to someone..that is just a by-product..;-) Infact, I want to relish my fight to fulfil this challenge!!)

I will succeed...

Sure..I will not be ordinary.

Outset

I was craving for a platform to pen down my everything...

Platform where there are would be no barriers of identity...
Platform where I can speak out everything I really think of..without the fear of being a destroyer of my own image and reputation..

It was then that I came to know about blogging...I started at once with all excitement.
But, some how my identity crept in...
It no longer serves the purpose of its creation.

This is another attempt of reveletion of my trueself...

This blog is created with the sole purpose of portrayl of my real self...which always seeks to be hidden from the outerworld(due to various reasons, ofcourse)

Not for making friends..Not to keep a track to my academic progress...
just to speakout my mind..

As I told already, this is not my first blog..
And I hope I will keep this safe for myself...just a soul without identity!!