I got the answer

Ento

anni vinta vinta thoughts, anni kotta kotta revelations!!

eemani interpret ch3eyaalo veetannintini??!! its all too abstract, too stupid rather... perhaps I am rationalizing...

I dont know .

nenu ilaage pichi pichi ga chetta chetta gaa unnappude comfortable ga unna.
as far as I am concerned, this-- i repeat --THIS is my comfort zone.
all of this is normal for me! whenever I deny it, or try to modify it, problems emerge...huh!
It always seems to me as adjustment, but perhaps, its wonderful that i'm like that.
its wonderful that something called sam who's like that exists in this world, pure and perverted, just like that.

i dont know if i amable to convey exactly what i feel... I dont know!!
but I know what I mean.
Its wonderful to be like this.
And its more wonderful being better.
Being better doesnt mean killing sam and replacing her with someother so called wonderful X
Its wonderful becoming a better sam, and now I know what i really mean by it!!
yeah! I do know waht I mean by it!
its not about forcing a wonderful style of doing things of someone else upon me, its all about getting absorbed in my own style of doing things and relishing it to the maximum. making myself better and betther and better

i love this.
i love working like this.
this keeps me very very comfortable. Stress free. happy. contended. energetic.

i dont care if anyone understands all the crap i write here... I dont care if all that I write here is misinterpretsed. it just doesnt matter to me. I am too happy to notice and worry about all these things right now! I am too happy!!

this is what is called sam, as on today... huh!

yes

Despite all my stupid distorsions, I have to agree.
I HAVE to agree that I am what I appear to be.

I am as foolish as I appear
As ignorant as I appear
as incapable as I appear
as irresponsible as I appear
As stupid as I appear



I dont know waht else to say...
I find no lore words.. I mean I cant bear writing more

I feel like a loser
I feel as if it was a waste of 21 years of my 'existance' on earth.
rock esists
dirt esists
so do I

Loving myself

yes, I am...

I dont think I can write more than this, though I want to ... In fact I have loads and loads of feelings waiting to be smeared in their brightest hues on this place of mine...

Thanks a lot, sir!!

Nannu tempt chestunnaru shankar sir!!

Oh my god! \i cant believe this!!
Oka 10 minute talk to nato samvatsaraluga vastunna pichi attitude ki virugudu chupinchesare!

sir మరీ నన్ను అంతగా influence చేసేసార, whem I am in a condition where my mind is no longer open to take any thoughts, advices or suggestions, అంత easy గా నిమిషాల్లో naa ee impenetrable barrier nu ela break chesesaru?!! how simple a solution did you give me!! Atleast, how simple you made it seem!!


I say onething today sir, When I succeed in doing what I want to, I will contact you no matter what, just to thank you sir. Coz all the credit goes to you, and only you!




THANK YOU SIR !!

dare to take decisions sam

dare to choose your next step. gali etu tarimite ala velladam kadu. Terachaapa nu neeku kavalasina result vachela vaaduko. Just use. ante :)

Waiting 4 my doc.

Ento. Nakem artham kavatledu. Tappento teleedu. Aina nenenti? Chetulu muduchuku khali ga kurchunte edo ashareera vani type lo dananantatade vachi solution istundanukuntunnana? Na

fag end of casualty posting...

Hmmm...

ryles and foleys ok.
cath inka perfect kaledu.
venesection nerchukune opportunity vadulukunna

sutures ok. parvaledu. expert nu kanu but still, naa meeda pani vadilesi vellochanna bharosa ivvagalanu.poisonings inka confidence ledu. hate this

ECG lo chaala nerchukuntunna, I know i'm not still complete, but still, I'm fine


coimbatore ku velta, I've decided.


and ee roju nundi chaduvtunna. that's also decided.