I feel as if my head is breaking into a thousand pieces...But i dont want to resist...I feel resisting is a blunder and it costs me my life
It is this feeling..feeling of guilt or something else that shields me from time to time from further episodes of assault of this kind...But..............??
I dont feel like continuing ...I dont feel like quittilng either..
I dont feel ;like gettilng co;ntrol over the keyvboard I work upon...
I dont ffeel llike hitting the backspacer to correct the mistakes on tis page...
I feel like ................
I jkust want to let this feeling smash mle out..............................
Jus t want it to happen
Is it really going to hurt me?
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
NEVER!!!!
Just want to shield myself from everything else that washes out this feeling from me...
May be because this is the only thing that makes me feel the outer world can make me feel no worse than this......................
