pch!

Dont know why I feel so gloomy!

Perhaps I know!

Yes, I know.
I know the reason for everything
The reason is hatred
Hatred for this feeling of dissatisfaction that I live with.

Hatred for the dissatisfaction I bear.









I dont like myself.



















I want to weep... bitterly.
BITTERLY.

i WANT TO WEEP.
i HATE MYSELF FOR BEING THIS.
i HATE MYSELF FOR BEING THIS.
i HATE BEING MYSELF...

i KNOW I CANT FORGIVE MYSELF FOR THIS KIND OF HATRED.
bUT STILL i HAVE TO EXPRESS IT
sTILL, i WANT AN OUTLET


i DONT WANT THIS
i DONT WANT THIS .

THIS STUPID LIFE OF ADJUSTMENT, RATIONALIZATION.

i AM TRYING TO KEEP MY HEAR SRTAIGHT, ALWAYS , BY GIVING REFERENCE TO PAST GLORY...AND PAST ACHIEVEMENTS
i DINT AGREE THIS.
i WANT EVR\ERY DAY OF MY LIFE TO EARN ME SOMETHING
i WANT IT TO EARN ME SATISFACTION
iMMENSE PLEASURE
BOUNDLESS JOY
FEELING OF ACCOMPLISHMENT

i WANT IT
i WNAT IT
i WANT TO DO SOMETHNING
i WANT TO DO SOMETHING