work...

I want to love

LOVE my work

LOVE MY WORK

I have gone mad!


No I haven t

pch!

Dont know why I feel so gloomy!

Perhaps I know!

Yes, I know.
I know the reason for everything
The reason is hatred
Hatred for this feeling of dissatisfaction that I live with.

Hatred for the dissatisfaction I bear.









I dont like myself.



















I want to weep... bitterly.
BITTERLY.

i WANT TO WEEP.
i HATE MYSELF FOR BEING THIS.
i HATE MYSELF FOR BEING THIS.
i HATE BEING MYSELF...

i KNOW I CANT FORGIVE MYSELF FOR THIS KIND OF HATRED.
bUT STILL i HAVE TO EXPRESS IT
sTILL, i WANT AN OUTLET


i DONT WANT THIS
i DONT WANT THIS .

THIS STUPID LIFE OF ADJUSTMENT, RATIONALIZATION.

i AM TRYING TO KEEP MY HEAR SRTAIGHT, ALWAYS , BY GIVING REFERENCE TO PAST GLORY...AND PAST ACHIEVEMENTS
i DINT AGREE THIS.
i WANT EVR\ERY DAY OF MY LIFE TO EARN ME SOMETHING
i WANT IT TO EARN ME SATISFACTION
iMMENSE PLEASURE
BOUNDLESS JOY
FEELING OF ACCOMPLISHMENT

i WANT IT
i WNAT IT
i WANT TO DO SOMETHNING
i WANT TO DO SOMETHING

HA!

i dont really believe that these personality tests do tell me something about myself!!
But still, I keep doing them
I find fun in doing them
I tend to spend time in trying to judge them and analyze them

I'm silly, amn't I??

Global Personality Test Results

Stability (46%) medium which suggests you average somewhere in between being calm and resilient and being anxious and reactive. Orderliness (10%) very low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment. Extraversion (36%) moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

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Enneagram Test Results Type 1 Perfectionism || 10% Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Type 3 Image Focus |||||||||||||||| 62% Type 4 Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 78% Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||||| 54% Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||||| 50% Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 62% Type 8 Aggressiveness |||| 18% Type 9 Calmness |||||||||||| 50% Your main type is 2 Your variant is self pres

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12/5/09

Blogs ekkuvaipoyay

Visugochesidi!!!!!!~


But this is my sole sweet site :)


Edi kotta utsaham.... Utsaham...just for soul
inka baddakam vadalaledu


Kani I am happy
I'm happy that I find myself alive again!
I'm happy to find this zeal in myself again.

After loooooooong gap!

I am really happy.
This is a good begining!

I'm satisfied!!

Today everything is just in feelings and words.
But tomorrow I must find everything in action.
My deeds must speak tomorrow.

I AM HAPPY

A pic's fuss!!

Gandaragolam chesesa anta!!
:-)

Papam cover cheyadaniki trials veera level lo jarigay, But still---
Nenu chesinadi oka tikka pani...daniki em cheyalo artham kaka inkonni tikka panulu...

Aapaina em cheyalo artham kaka edupulu :)

aaveshanga blog kuda rasesa ededo!!!

Beware!

Joy or sorrow… Whatever the news is..

I return!!

But today… Its something different.
Its like realization.

Well, these days I find myself realizing some stupid fact about everything
And always!!

I dont know
It was a spurt.
An episode of emotional outburst.
A couple of minutes when I became senseless…insensible..silly—I dont know what adjective to add!
Something which makes no sense to me.
Something which didn’t make any sense to me when it was actually happening.

It has nothing to do with this ‘realization’ however.

Its a fact.. An unquestionable fact…
That I have got a dangerous habit..
Of letting my thoughts wander as they please.. without any watch over them.

Its dangerous because, by doing so, I dont give myself any choice in there.
I dont give myself any control over them
I dont give myself any opportunity to screen them

thereby wiping out every possibility of my marching towards my dreams!!

I dont know what it is technically or conventionally called.
I choose to label them as dangerloops that trap energy, neutralize it, and so the fuel gets used up, but engine goes no where…

Ha! Ha!

This is a reminder for myself.